Across the seas.
Friday, April 10, 2009
12:13 AM

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So here's the thing.
I have an amazing boyfriend, whom I adore and love with all my heart. Well, no, not all of my heart. That part was a lie, and the whole reason I seem to be caught up in my own little love triangle. The thing is, I have been in love with another man, and him in love with me, for awhile now. By awhile, I actually mean sense I was 11. I am 18 now, 7 years is a pretty long time.

I met him on this little kids site, neopets.com. Yes, yes, I know. Childish, right? Well, I was a child then, so it's a-okay. Anyways, I met him there, we exchanged AIM screen names and eventually phone numbers. I used to stay up for hours on end chatting and laughing with him. I did that up until about a year ago, when we got into a small fight.


He wanted t o come and see me, but I have been dating my current boyfriend for 3 years in July, so when he called me and wanted to come here for a visit, I said no, for fear of losing my relationship with my current boyfriend. You may ask why, right? Why should I waste my time with my boyfriend, if I am in love with somebody else. Well, is it possible to love not only one person? I believe the answer to that is yes. This overseas relationship means so much to me, but I broke his heart when I told him not to come.

We haven't spoken now, in about a month and I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't breathe when he isn't around, but the thought of letting him come here, knowing that it will tear me and my current boyfriend apart breaks my heart. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I can't stand to lose either of them, but I feel as though no matter what I do, on of them will leave.

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