Ankle Express
Monday, April 27, 2009
1:35 PM

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So as most of you know, I live with my boyfriend, Jason.
Now, living with your boyfriend may sound totally and completely awesome to somebody that has never done it before. But to those of us that have, the idea may not sound to appealing.

When I first moved in with him, I was so stoked to think that every night we would be together. I would be able to cuddle up to him and know that in the morning, his cute little face would be there for me to wake up to. How wonderful would it be to be there every second of everyday with the love of my life?

Here is the thing, it's not that wonderful. I mean, sure, it is nice to wake up to him in the morning, and cuddle up to him at night. But during the day, I feel like I can never escape! My friends are still in school, so hanging out with them is almost impossible when I need to get away, what with most of us having jobs now, there is no time to just 'chill'. Jason and his friends don't go to school anymore, and don't have full-time jobs, so guess where they like to hang out? Here!

Now, I have no problem with the occasional 'boys night' but after the third or fourth in a row, I seriously get fed up. All they want to do is sit on the computer, or shoot their guns. Which is fun, don't get me wrong. But, when you do it everyday, the fun is sucked out of it. I get tired of hearing all the boy talk about cars and motorcycles every fucking day. Sometimes, I just want to listen to some giggling girls talk about cute boys and getting their hair done, if you know what I mean.

It really stinks not being able to get away. And sense I don't have my own car, it makes things even more difficult. I can never just go for a drive or take off by myself. Unless, of course, I want to do it on foot.

So last night, me and Jason got into this huge fight, over practically nothing. It was my fault, really, because I made something really small into a huge deal. See, I hate when people touch my face. It's strange, but when you think about it, it sort of makes sense. Like, think of where their hands have been. Maybe they went to the grocery store and put their hands on a cart that millions of other people have. Now, where were THOSE peoples hands? One of them went to the bathroom and there was no toilet paper, the other just finished wiping an eye booger, somebody just picked a wedgie and now all of that is being rubbed on my face. Pretty gross. So Jason, touched my face, thinking it would be funny, and knowing I hate it. I told him to stop, and of course, he didn't, he just kept on rubbing. I freaked out. Normally, I would just laugh it off and wash my face, but with all my recent stress, and the fact that I couldn't just leave to take a breather, made me flip the fuck out.

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Long time, no update.
Friday, April 24, 2009
9:04 PM

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So I know I haven't updated in awhile.
So shoot me. My life has been busy lately. But I have managed to not only update, but add new things today. -Pats self on back-

First, however, I am going to ramble on about my life.
So my friend Josh, the one mentioned earlier, yea, well he got a job offer in Canada. How lucky if that? Here I am looking near and far almost everyday trying to get my hands on even a part-time job and he is offered one! Very unfair if you ask me. Anyway, he would get paid a ton of money and they also give him $2500.00/month in living expenses. So, you know, for food, housing, and all that jazz. PLUS, Canada has free health care. He wouldn't even need to worry about that. They would also give him 2 round trip tickets to visit his family in Texas every year.

I think it is a good deal, but he doesn't know if he wants to leave everything behind. If I were him, I would take the opportunity and wave goodbye. But that's just me.

On another note, there is a parade coming to town tomorrow! Well, actually, it isn't coming to town, it is always here. Every year my town has a little parade and festival. Usually it is really fun and cool to watch all the floats. But I can't go this year, because I am working.

Poo on that, right?

Now that I am down rambling, here are the new graphics, enjoy!

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Tag, your it.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
4:31 PM

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I was tagged by Passion (:

Why did you choose (your site’s name)?
Honestly, I was looking at some landscape photos while creating a layout. My name is Brey, and a just added the ending of scape. Which of course came from the landscape I was looking at.

What is your favorite color combination so far?
Salmon and navy blue.

Who is your favorite Friend online? Why?
Hmmm, that's hard. I guess I would say Stin, because he stays up late and talks to me. Or my long lost buddy Plaehn, because he was so darn funny! I love Chynna too (: SHe always pops in to say hello.

Who is your favorite chatmate?
Stin. Because he stays up as late as I do.

OK, Thanks for Answering! Let’s talk about something personal:
How many boyfriends have you had since birth?
Hmmm.
Quite a few when I was little, you know.
But realistically, like, 2?

Do you have boyfriend?
Yes. For almost 3 years.

Hmmm… When (age) was your first kiss?
First real one? Or first just little peck kind?
Little peck was like, Kindergarden.
Real one was Freshman year.

What was your feeling?
Little peck? Awkward.
Real one? Amazing.

So… Let’s talk something about your country. This one is very serious. (M’kay) ?
Where did you came from (country)?
America

Then what’s the nationality?
American

What’s the official language?
English

How many languages can you speak? What are they?
English, and a bit of Spanish. But I am not fluent in it.

Are you proud of your country?
Usually, yes.

Hope you learned something from these questions… OK, last set of questions…
What’s your hairstyle?
Long, layered, blonde, wavy.

What’s your beauty style?
Cute? I have no idea. I don't layer on the makeup, and I'm not really into the whole 'sexy' look. I just keep casual.

What’s your clothing style?
Casual.

Anything else you want to say?
I think this quiz needs better questions.
FO SHO.

I tag;
Chynna, Laina, Chloe, Ash, Bea, Sienna, Liz and Maryam.




Leaving the building.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
11:48 AM

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Update on my grandpa.
He is doing much much better and they hope to get him out of the hospital by Friday. Both him and my grandma are hoping for later today. The anitbiotics they are giving him are helping bring down the infection and as long as they continue to work, he won't need to have surgery until June. Which is good news!

Thank you everyone that prayed for him, I know that it helped.

In other news, I finally talked to that over the seas man I was telling you all about earlier. We are on a friendship basis right now. Which is good, because it makes my life less complicated. He said he wants to think about things. He is going back home from Alaska soon. There is a girl there that he is somewhat into, and he wants to try and sort things out with her.

It's funny. I didn't even know that he was in the same situation as I am.
Apparently, this girl, her name is Holly. Well, they are best friends. Her and Josh, who is the guy I told you all about. But she has feelings for him beyond friendship. Josh knows that if they got together, that things would work out because they are such good friends already. I really do hope that things work out for them. As crazy as that sounds. Me wanting somebody that I love to be with somebody else. But honestly, he should just be happy. I have broken his heart so many times that I don't really even think that I deserve him anymore.

But who knows?
Maybe his absence during his trip to Alaska has made her second guess herself. Maybe she has found somebody else? Time will tell I guess. But I can't wait to find out what he is going to do. I talked to Jason (my current boyfriend) about Josh coming to visit and staying with us for a bit. He said that would be cool, even though I know that he is uncomfortable with it. I think it would be fun, and having Jason there would be really great.

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Hello 9-1-1
Monday, April 13, 2009
6:10 PM

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Trouble went down during Easter. First signs that something was wrong, Grandpa wasn't in the mood for dinner. Now, you may think; why is this this a big deal? Well, if you knew my Grandpa, you would know that he never misses a meal, ever. He is usually the first to the dinner table and the last to finish. He eats until he can't anymore. Some of that may have to do with the fact that my grandma is an amazing cook.

Anyway, turns out he was having a stomach ache. A bad one at that. We took him to the emergency room. I was hoping that it was only food poisoning, sense we had eaten out at a restaurant the night before. However, he actually has a whole in his colon. Which is very bad news because it is infecting his inner workings. I am so stressed out over it. It looks as if they are going to have to do emergency surgery because his white blood cell count is going up, rather than down. Even with all the antibiotics they are giving him. Meaning, the infection is getting worse. My grandpa is one tough cookie, and when they asked him to rate his pain on a scale from 1-10, he told them 11. Poor grandpa :(

This whole thing is a total mess. Even more so because if they end up having to do emergency surgery, they have to put him under anesthesia. Because he had heart surgery a couple years back, putting him under anesthesia is a very risky thing. His previous heart problems triple his risk of having a stroke or another heart attack during the procedure.

So, keep him in your prayers for me? I need all the help I can get.

Besides the drama, the rest of my Easter was really great. I had an Easter egg hunt and went to church, I love holiday church. It's surprisingly fun (:

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Contemplating.
Friday, April 10, 2009
1:21 PM

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I was on blogger the other day and I thought, you know what? I am going to link this is brey-scape.tk instead.

I manipulated a template that I found (credits are on the sidebar) and turned it into something that worked for me, as graphics designer and blogging fanatic. Now, I will have much more updates on brey-scape, which is good for both you, and me. However, be aware that some my of postings may be rated R, I will be sure to warn you at the top so that no young eyes are burned by my language or content.

Now for something completely different.
I am going to be at my grandma's house starting tonight until Monday afternoon. So don't expect a post from be in between there. Because, well, I won't be here to update anything. Who's excited for Easter? I sure as hell am. Egg hunt at grandma's this Sunday, plus a ton of food. Jason is coming with me, so I am really excited. He has never been to my grandma's for Easter before, and I think he is pretty stoked too.

Also, I updated the blinkies page. Which actually means that I deleted all the old ones and just put some new ones up. So, enjoy them and wave goodbye to all the outdated uglies!

Stop and comment.
Please let me know what you think of the new setup for brey-scape.tk . I know it isn't as original, sense this work wasn't %100 done by me, but I plan on making my own template very shortly, most likely during spring break. But that is only if you guys like it. Personally, I could go either way.

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Across the seas.
12:13 AM

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So here's the thing.
I have an amazing boyfriend, whom I adore and love with all my heart. Well, no, not all of my heart. That part was a lie, and the whole reason I seem to be caught up in my own little love triangle. The thing is, I have been in love with another man, and him in love with me, for awhile now. By awhile, I actually mean sense I was 11. I am 18 now, 7 years is a pretty long time.

I met him on this little kids site, neopets.com. Yes, yes, I know. Childish, right? Well, I was a child then, so it's a-okay. Anyways, I met him there, we exchanged AIM screen names and eventually phone numbers. I used to stay up for hours on end chatting and laughing with him. I did that up until about a year ago, when we got into a small fight.


He wanted t o come and see me, but I have been dating my current boyfriend for 3 years in July, so when he called me and wanted to come here for a visit, I said no, for fear of losing my relationship with my current boyfriend. You may ask why, right? Why should I waste my time with my boyfriend, if I am in love with somebody else. Well, is it possible to love not only one person? I believe the answer to that is yes. This overseas relationship means so much to me, but I broke his heart when I told him not to come.

We haven't spoken now, in about a month and I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't breathe when he isn't around, but the thought of letting him come here, knowing that it will tear me and my current boyfriend apart breaks my heart. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I can't stand to lose either of them, but I feel as though no matter what I do, on of them will leave.

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